Friday, May 17, 2019

Two Weeks.

Two Weeks. Two Weeks without my Love.

How am I doing? I'm okay. I'm not wearing black and I'm not laying in bed. I feel empty, like a hallow person walking around. And I'm tired. My brain isn't working correctly either... It's almost as if I am walking in a Fog. I can't remember anything and my ADD is crazy right now. Time is moving very slow.

How are the kids? We took last week off of school and did something fun every day. We started with the arcade and ended with Six Flags. I was all out of fun by Friday. They started back to school on Monday and they have had a great week. The counselor and teachers prepared the class and gave them some ideas of what to say and how to be a good friend.

Henry said, "I don't like when people act like nothing happened. May 1st was a sad day for our family." And I agree. Thank you, everyone, for reaching out, sending cards, meals and all the other things you have done to love on our family.

A few pictures from the past two weeks.

 I spent the night with my sister and we showed up wearing the same pajamas.
 Six Flags Day. Henry fell in love with Roller Coasters!

Lucy played in her volleyball tournament last week. They made it to the championship but lost! Julie and I cheered the bears on in our Mama Bear shirts.

My kids took me to church on Sunday for Mother's Day. Henry was sweet and said, "I'll take you to church but I can't even drive...." I told him I would drive if he would open the doors for me. They also gifted me a 1-hour nap. At exactly one hour, Lucy brought me a cup of coffee and a homemade card. It was very sweet.

God is bigger than this and He is good.

Friday, May 3, 2019

Jonathan David Bost April 18, 1980 - May 1, 2019

Jonathan David Bost, 39, passed away at home in Frisco, TX on May 1, 2019, surrounded by his family. He courageously waged battle against brain cancer for four years. Despite all he endured, he continued working full time until the end of January 2019. He lived every day with courage, love, and grace, unfailing faith and humor. He was an inspiration in how to serve his family, delight in the Lord and suffer well.

Jonathan was born April 18, 1980, in Little Rock, Arkansas to David and Becky Bost. He grew up in Arkadelphia, Arkansas. At age 8, Jonathan made a profession of faith and after a swim across the baptistry, he dedicated his life to Jesus. He attended the University of Arkansas in Fayetteville where he met his wife of 12 years, Mary. He graduated with a degree in Computer Science.
Jonathan started his career at Walmart ISD in Bentonville, Arkansas. After a move to Texas in 2012, he continued his love of programming at various companies including most recently Alkami Technology in Plano, TX.

Jonathan’s greatest accomplishments are his and Mary’s children, Lucy age 10 and Henry age 6. One of his most precious memories was that of praying with Lucy and Henry as they each committed their lives to Christ and then participating in Lucy’s baptism.

In addition to Mary and their children, he is survived by his parents, Becky and David Bost of Arkadelphia; a brother, Dennis Bost, and his wife Delta and their children Asher and Harper all of Little Rock; and his grandmothers, Ovella Bost Elliott and Faye Borland of Arkadelphia; mother and father-in-law, Molly and David Bullington of Frisco, Texas, brother and sister-in-law, Ryan and Laura Coble, and their children Taylor, Emma Grace, Addison and Preston all of Flower Mound, Texas, and sister-in-law, Emily Bullington, of Denver, Colorado, and his beloved family poodle, Wesley Bost.

Jonathan's Celebration of Life
Saturday, May 4, 2019
Stonebriar Community Church
4801 Legendary Drive, Frisco, Texas

2:00 - 3:00 pm Memorial Service -- Building B, Multi Purpose Room (MPR)
3:00 - 3:30 pm Family Receiving Line -- Lobby area outside of the MPR
A Celebration Dinner to Follow. 
In lieu of flowers, a 529 fund for Lucy and Henry’s education has been set up. Links are below:


Friday, April 5, 2019

April Update

We knew we were fighting a winless battle but we fought. 
With Jesus at our side, we fought. 
And we lost. 
(Note- Jonathan is still alive...)

Tuesday we discovered that Jonathan's grade 3 brain cancer morphed into grade 4 glioblastoma and it won. This didn't surprise us, we could see it coming. Jonathan wasn't responding to treatment. Tuesday we decided to discontinue treatment and Hospice was called in. I've told the kids. We cried. I let them yell bad words. We cried some more. Henry cried into Jonathan and said, "Dad, I think you'll have the best time in heaven." 

God is still bigger than this and Jesus can fix it. 
He's just not going to do it this side of heaven.
My prayer request is that God is merciful.

Tuesday, February 26, 2019

Just a note...

I started this blog 10 years ago to document Lucy growing up. I'm so glad I did. I was faithfully writing for the first 4 years, then less when Henry was born, and then more when Jonathan was diagnosed. I found this an outlet to share updates, hurts, and God's faithfullness. I'm blown away by the people who don't know us and who have grown to pray for my family. Thank you. Thank you for the emails. Thank you for the notes. Thank you for the comments. Thank you for the prayers.

(Thank you for the grace when I don't respond)

4 weeks ago if you told me that Jonathan would have just finished the 3rd round of iv chemo I would have laughed in your face. I'm so thankful that God has slowed down my time wtih Jonathan. During the day time moves so slow but as soon as my kids get home its back to business.

I'm reminded of the Reba song- I guess the world didn't stop for my broken heart....

Because as my world/heart is breaking everything around me keeps moving and going. We are trying to keep things normal for the kids so we are still doing school, homework, spelling words, reading, soccer, volleyball, eating 5x a day, baths, making of the beds, laundry, snacks.

(I'm thankful for all of the help I have, Jonathan's parents, Dennis and Delta, My parents, Aunt Laura and Uncle Ryan, Aunt Emily, Church Family, DC, Friends, Neighbors)

I made the kids a chore chart and they are learning to be more responsible. Henry loves to work and Lucy love the responsibility.

God is bigger than this. He is faithful. He shows up everday. He has supplied us with peace and comfort. Some days are good, some days are bad. But he is always good. My prayer to him lately is "I'm going to let you figure this out." Most of the time it's with sincere trust that I say that and other times it's in a sassy voice.... But Always with Trust. He has seen down the corridor of time, he has collected all my tears. God is good at being God.

That's it. That's my update. We just keep on keepin' on. 

Friday, February 1, 2019


We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the holy spirit who has been given to us. - Romans 5:3-5

My hope is in Jesus and the promise of heaven. He has given me peace that passes all understanding and it's the only reason that I am still able to get out of bed today.

Jonathan's health has declined rapidly.

We ask for prayers for all of our family and privacy. You don't need the details to pray, you just need to pray.

I'm thankful and comforted that none of this has surprised God. He has seen down the corridor of time and he knows our hours, days, and future. I can see every day where he is providing. Things I couldn't even think to pray for, He has provided for us. I am sitting in trust.  

Thank you for your continued love, support, and prayers. Your cards, texts, and notes have meant the world to Jonathan and me. 

God is bigger than this and Jesus Can Fix-it. 

Friday, January 18, 2019

I've been Thinking....

Disclaimer- I'm feeling a little SASSY today.... 

Dear Friends. 

Thank you for all of the prayers for our family. Jonathan started his oral chemo last night. So far so good. He will do a low dose of chemo every night and will start iv chemo next week after his port is inserted. 

Again, Thank you for Praying. 

Mary (non-sassy)

Now Sassy Mary... 

Common Phrases I've heard the past few weeks

I'm praying for you! (Thank you!) 
I'm Thinking of you...
I'm sending light your way... 
I'm sending you good vibes...

Please don't think of me. I know what you are thinking. "Wow, that is hard. I'm glad that is not me." And then you hug your husband a little tighter and move on with your day. We've all done it... If you start to think of me the most useful thing to do is Pray. 

Now, Let's talk about Sending Light and Good Vibes my way.  I don't even know what that is. You might as well send me the flu. It is useless to me. If you want to send anything my way, send cash. 
(No, I don't need money. But it is more useful to me than light, vibes, sunshine or the flu.) 

So there you have it... Prayers or Money are what you can send my way. 

God is bigger than this and Jesus Can fix-it. 

Wednesday, January 16, 2019

A morning reminder

My morning reading just so happened to include our family verse. 

And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.
-1 Peter 5:10

I love that Jesus, himself is going to restore, confirm, strengthen and establish us. Again, He's in the business of relationships. I also love this verse because it makes me CRAVE Heaven. It's going to be a glorious day. 

God is bigger than this and Jesus Can Fix-it.