Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Where I've been and Where I'm going.

I started this blog as a way to keep up with my family's memories. To be really honest I started it to show everyone that I was the best mom in the world. I wasn't. I had the worst baby and I wanted to show people a perfect world that I created. There are times that I have just omitted the truth because it reflected poorly on me. I left out the part where for 3 solid months Lucy would climb out of her crib and wipe poop all over her room or that she couldn't talk until she was 3. I left out the times where I didn't make the best parenting decisions or lost my temper. I didn't want to have written proof where I didn't have it all together. I don't want this blog to be a vague part of my story. 

I want to be honest- almost vulnerable. To do this I'm going to cling to John 3:30. "He must increase, but I must decrease." I'm going to put my pride to the side and tell you a story. 

This fall Jonathan and I began praying for a new job for him. Something that would allow him more time at home. Jonathan was working a lot. I was also praying 1 Timothy 6:8 into my life, "But if we have food and clothing with these we will be content.". I've been trying to simplify to concentrate on the important things in life- Jesus, Jonathan and my Family.

Flash forward to 8 weeks ago. Jonathan and I surrendered all of things to the Lord: Our children, our finances, our earthly belongings, Jonathan's career and each other. 1 Peter 5:7-We cast all of our anxiety on the Lord because he cares for us! We told Him we trusted Him, we loved Him and that we knew that He is good, He is Faithful and that He loves us! (whenever I say that, which I've said a lot lately, I always think of in THE HELP, You is kind. You is smart. You is important.) 

One week later, Jonathan was laid off from his job, along with all the other developers from his company. 

Two days prior, I had shared with my prayer partners that we surrendered all this stuff and I nervous at what God was going to do. I really just want it all to work out without a big trial. Here's the thing. God puts us through trials so he can show us how MIGHTY He is! I wanted the Faith without the work. 

For Six weeks we walked hand in hand with our Lord and Savior. He walked right beside us. We could feel his presence as we prayed together, He protected us from attacks against Satan, He strengthened our armor, He clothed us with his arms and He fed us with his word. 

We praised Him for what we did have: A warm house, food in the pantry, and healthy children. He had supplied us with all these things! 

We prayed that He would point us in the direction in which He wanted us to go! We asked Him to open doors we were suppose to pursue and to instantly close the ones that we were to avoid. We were amazed at how these doors were instantly closed especially after appearing to be a good opportunity. 

Last week, all the doors aligned and God supplied us with a new job. He exceeded our expectations to what we expect to be a much better opportunity with more family time. Jonathan started on Monday. 

I wanted to share this for a couple of reasons
1. To Give Glory to God. 
2. To have for my memories at how wonderful our sweet Jesus is and how he has worked in our life
3. To encourage everyone to surrender what you cling to or covet to God. 

What I have learned
1. He is in control and He loves you. God doesn't want your stuff. He wants you to trust Him and to Love Him. 
2. Savings is important. God has put it on us to save. (Give and Save) If we didn't have an emergency fund we would have missed this whole experience because we would have been too busy panicking and trying to fix it ourselves. 
3. We can live without a lot of luxuries in our lives. We are pretty basic around here now. Which was another prayer answered- Thank you sweet Jesus for helping me simplify my life!
4. We cannot skimp on toilet paper. Anything but Quilted Northern breaks out my hiney!

Where I'm going-
I'm going to blog less about my kids. I don't want the world to know every detail about them. It's a dangerous world and I don't want to expose my kids. Lucy starts kindergarten in the fall. I want to protect her from what I can and the internet is one of the things. I'll still put up pictures but leave off the details of her life. (I'll figure that part out as I go)

I'm going to post more about our simplified life. 
-Less Stuff
-Thrift Stores
-Jesus
-Recipes- I make my own bread! I find it therapeutic! 
-Saving and being Cheap!

We will see where this goes. The blog could just be a season and that season is over. I don't know. I'm praying about it. I want God to use me to encourage others. I want to make myself less to make Him more. I want to show others how mighty He is. I just want to be a servant to the Lord.

 I want to Love sweet Jesus. 
Love my Husband. And Love our Kids. 

That's it. 

The End. 

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Absolutely wonderful writing. I know it's from your heart! What a blessing to have you for a daughter-in-law!