Monday, May 25, 2015

My last day.

I can't see the future. And I'm not in control of it. Brain Cancer or not, our days are limited. Jonathan's days are limited. My days are limited. Your days are limited. God is in control of all our futures. We are all in the same boat. And this brings me so much comfort. I don't want to be in charge. I don't want to be in control. God's plans for my life have been so much more beautiful than I could have ever imagined. He is unimaginably perfect.

Saturday, I told Jonathan that all we could do is trust God. His plan is perfect. I can't see a day in advance, all we can do is live for today. I don't know what tomorrow brings, but I have today. 

Sunday, our sermon was on "Our Favorite Sin-Worry", we sang "The solid rock" and "Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus". Either Chuck Swindoll is spying on us and our conversations, or God gave us exactly what we needed in the exact moment that we needed it. Chuck encouraged us to give the day to God. Before our feet hit the ground say, "God your will. Your way." So this morning I threw my surrender flag, gave the day to God, said, "Your will. Your way," and asked him what he needed me to do for him today. That is all I can do. Honestly, the future is much brighter when you live for the day. 

If today was my last day on earth what would I want it to include... 
1. Represent Jesus. Through action or speech.  
2. Love on my husband. Does he know how much I love and appreciate him? 
3. Love on my kids. Do they know how much I love them? Do they have enough of my love to supply them for the rest of their life?
4. Do the people I encounter- family, friends and strangers- know where I stand with the Lord? When I die I want people to say, "Girlfriend loved Jesus and Jonathan."   (Yes, I love my kids but they are easy to love, that's why God gives them to you when they are little and squishy. Grown men are not little and squishy, they are sometimes moody and messy.)

What would your last day include? 

So don't worry about tomorrow, 
for tomorrow will bring its own worries. 
Today's trouble is enough for today. - Matthew 6:34

God is bigger than this and Jesus can fix-it.

No comments: