Sunday, May 3, 2015

This is Hard.

Friends, 

This is hard. 

I' m used to being everything to everyone. I juggle 100 jobs. 
I have 6 other adults in my house doing my regular job. The yard is taken care of, food is being delivered, appointments being made, house is being cleaned, laundry being washed/folded/put away (my family is actually better at doing this than me), soccer games attended, grocery shopping,  chauffeuring kids,  and our kids are being fed/bathed/taught and loved on.

 The only thing I need to be right now is be Jonathan's wife. I love him. But this is hard. All I can do is be there for Jonathan and Cling to Jesus. Jesus and I are BFFs. He has been right at my side since the start of this. I find this so amazing because I've seen him at work in other people lives at the same time. All without leaving my side. I can't be everything to everyone but HE CAN. That is how big God is! 



I've been in constant prayer and song. This is what  God has put on my heart and in my ear the last few days. 



"Lord, I Need You" Matt Maher
Lord, I come, I confess
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You're the One that guides my heart

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Where sin runs deep Your grace is more
Where grace is found is where You are
And where You are, Lord, I am free
Holiness is Christ in me

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Teach my song to rise to You
When temptation comes my way
And when I cannot stand I'll fall on You
Jesus, You're my hope and stay

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

You're my one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You



God is bigger than this and Jesus Can Fix-It. 

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Praying for you precious family our pastor Kevin Lee told us your story in Church this morning. Prayers for healing and prayers for all the people helping you while you are there for him. Blessings to your whole family

Cheryl & Charlie Nichols