Wednesday, May 6, 2015

You don't always get what you want.

I remember my first prayer. I went to church and some lady told me that you can ask God for anything. This sounded awesome to my kindergarten self. So that night I asked God for straight blond hair and a short red sequins dress. I went to bed so excited to wake up with my new found beauty. But then I woke up. I was disappointed. I still had my brown frizzy curls and plain old pajamas. In that moment I was sad.  Then I came to realize that God knew best. He didn't want me to be a high dollar kindergarten prostitute with my red sequins dress and blond hair. He had bigger plans. Simpler plans. Plans that included brown curly hair and no sequins.
I'm glad he made that decision  for me.

I've been praying for a benign tumor for Jonathan. I wanted it to be benign. That was me tapping out and saying, "God, I don't want to do this, We're out." I wanted the easy way out.

But God needed this to be bigger than a benign tumor.

God needed this to be malignant. God needed this to be an anaplastic astrocytoma grade 3.

If God wants us to have cancer for His Glory then HERE WE GO.

Jonathan and I are at such a peace. A Peace that only God could provide.

 My hope is to bring glory to God through our story, be in awe of His everyday presence, and for people to see How He is moving mountains.

You will keep in perfect peace, her who's mind is steadfast because she trusts in You. 
Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord is the rock eternal.
-Isaiah 26: 3-4

God is bigger than this and Jesus Can Fix-It.

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6 comments:

sdejanes said...

Let your faith be ever steady and your hope unshaken. Sometimes it takes a while for God's larger plan to be revealed. Know that you all are in my prayers!

Tommy said...

Please check out Chris Beat Cancer, the cancer truth docu-series, as well as the Gerson Therapy. All very insightful and helpful before and while making treatment decisions. There are so many video testimonies stage 3-4.

Also, Dr. John Smothers at Integrative Wellness in Memphis

I will pray for your family as you walk through your cancer diagnosis.

Geer Family said...

You are right on sister! For God's glory. He wants you to know Him more intimately through this and I can tell from your posts that you will! Paul D. Tripp has a series on When Suffering Enters Your Door. It will bring you God-centered encouragement. http://www.paultripp.com/suffering

Unknown said...

So so sorry to hear this but will continue in prayer for your beautiful family and yes you and God have this. Hugs and prayers from the Nichols in Hopkinsville Ky.

Paxton Kelso said...

Mary, only you could get away with referring to yourself as a kindergarten prostitute.

I was reminded this morning that sometimes valuables come in rough outer packages to divert attention from them. You are spot on that He will achieve His glory through whatever means necessary and that is where our focus should be.

We are with you and praying for all of you!

Pax and Pam

Chad Holsclaw said...

Mary,

I'm amazed by your strength and encouragement! This news leveled me yesterday, but your words provided some peace. Tell Jonathan I love him and that I will be down there soon to see him. Keep fighting and know that you have so many people lifting you guys up in prayer. Thinking of you guys constantly!

Chad