They run and hug me when I return at the end of the day. Henry hugs me and grabs my face and says, "I thought you lost me." It breaks my heart. I tell him, "Mommy always comes back. Mommy loves you and I will never leave you."
What they don't know is that while I've been away, while I have been driving, while we have been separated, I have been planning our next adventure. I have plans that they don't even know about: Day trips, camps, conversations, birthday parties, Christmas presents, vacations, outfits, dinner, snacks, my grandma names (I'm thinking Crazy Mary), and the list goes on. I make plans for us. They may never know the plans I am making until they experience it.
And that is what God is doing for us also. I will never know His Will until we experience it. I just hold on to the truth that He does not abandon His children. He loves us. He makes plans for our future. I trust Him. His Will, His Way.
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
God is bigger than this and Jesus can fix-it.