Monday, November 30, 2015

MRI Day.

Thank you all for the prayers today. Jonathan had another MRI and things look good. No growth is always a blessing!!

God is bigger than this and Jesus can fix-it. 

Thursday, November 26, 2015

Thankful heart.

 5 things I'm thankful for.

1. God is close to the brokenhearted. My goal for next year is to lay broken at His feet because He is so close.

2. My family. I'm really thankful Jonathan didn't die back in April when this all went down. Also, I have two healthy kids. I'm really thankful for that.

 3. My Friends. I'm rich in friends. I've never been rich in friends until we moved to Texas. I prayed hard for one friend when we moved here (Because all you really need is one person who gets you) and God overflowed me with wonderful, come-as-you-are, Jesus-loving, grace-filled, godly women.

 4. My Extended Family. God moved half my family to Texas. We all live within 30 minutes of each other. I couldn't survive without these people helping me with the kids and Jonathan especially during chemo weeks, or just offering a hug. They know what I need just by sound of my voice and I love them.

5. I'm thankful for a warm house and food to eat and clothes to wear.

6. Brain Cancer. I'm not thankful that we have cancer but I am thankful for what it has done for us. It has made us focus on Jesus and God's provision and re-prioritize what is really important in life.

That's it. That is all I am thankful for.... Just kidding. I'm thankful for everything that we have and I'm excited to share this day with my family. I'm also thankful for all the people who read this blog and pray for our family. 

God is bigger than this and Jesus can fix-it. 

Friday, November 20, 2015

Friday Favorites

1. Thanksgiving.
I'm most thankful that we can sleep in for a week because there is no school. Sure sleeping in these days is until 7!

2. Christmas Shopping
I ordered everything from amazon. I am ready to wrap! Our kids Christmas present this year is a trip to Disney World so we didn't do much for gifts other than that. (Do not tell them about their trip. It is a surprise.)

3. Jesse Tree
I have started crafting my Jesse tree ornaments for this year's box. I am in charge of Noah's ark. I am copying something I found from pinterest that looked awesome but requires a lot of sewing skills. I have never sewed. I watched a YouTube video on how to blanket stitch and every ark gets better and better!

4. YouTube
You can learn anything from YouTube. Things I've learned: how to whip/nae-nae, fix a clogged garbage disposal, cut little boys hair, man haircuts, sewing, flash freezing, decorate a Christmas tree with mesh, how to patch a hole, contour makeup, eye-shadow tutorial, and I'm sure there are others. There's no excuses these days- everything is on YouTube- you can do anything!

5. Christmas.
I've been listening to Christmas on Pandora. I'm ready for Christmas. Last week I was not in the mood for Christmas when I was decorating and this week I keep sneaking more and more Christmas out of the closet. I'm suddenly in the mood.

6. Books.
Y'all know about my unhealthy obsession with books. Well I went to half price books yesterday and found a slew of books on the $2 shelf. They were all about praying. So, I had to buy them... Now I have to get to reading... I might have 25 books lined up to read. Maybe my goal for 2016 is to read more and not to buy books.

God is bigger than this and Jesus can fix-it. 

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

Weekend Review

Last week was chemo week. Jonathan really feels the effects of his medicine through the weekend. Thursday-Sunday are his worst days. Knowing this, my sisters took my kids and their cousins to the Great Wolf Lodge for the weekend. It's better for them to get out of the house and not see their daddy feel so bad. 

Thank you, Laura and Emily (and Ryan). My kids had a blast! 

While the kids were away and Jonathan was sick, I decorated for Christmas. I turned on Christmas music and diffused my Christmas spirit oil. Even though I wasn't really in the decorating or Christmas spirit I knew the kids would love the decorations. And they did. So it was worth it. 

I'm thankful round 4 is over. Only 20 more left to go. 

God is bigger than this and Jesus can fix-it. 

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Operation Christmas Boxes

After school I told Lucy we had a project to do and I needed her help! But first look how sweet my kids are cuddled together in my chair. 
I'm glad they love each other. 

Operation Christmas Child is put on my Samaritan's Purse. It supplies children in different countries who are in need with a gift filled with basic needs and a few surprises. This may be the only gift that many children ever receive. The treasures inside show that someone cares for them and gives them an opportunity to experience the love of God. 

Samaritan’s Purse is a nondenominational evangelical Christian organization providing spiritual and physical aid to hurting people around the world. Since 1970, Samaritan’s Purse has helped meet needs of people who are victims of war, poverty, natural disasters, disease, and famine with the purpose of sharing God’s love through His Son, Jesus Christ.

So I went to the walmart and the target and picked up our supplies. I read that each child will only receive one gift from Operation Christmas Child in their lifetime and this might be the only gift they ever receive... So I put a lot of pressure on myself and bought everything I thought this kid might need. Good news I did it. Bad news I can't get all the stuff in the box....

We are doing three boxes. 1 for each of our kids and 1 in replace of a birthday gift for a friend. 
Each of our boxes will contain: 
underwear- 2 pairs
2 shirts
A hammer
2 screwdrivers
1 tape measure
toothbrushes/toothpaste/toothbrush holder
soccer ball/pump
carrying bag

So far this is what our boxes look like... I think I'm just going to tape that sucker down and hope someone has some scissors. 

This is a great mission project to do with children. Lucy was very aware of what we were doing and who we were doing it for and why we were doing it. Information can be found on the website if you are interested in doing a box for a child!

God is bigger than this and Jesus can fix-it. 

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Journey Playdate

Our adult fellowship class is good about scheduling get-togethers throughout the month. This is a great opportunity to connect with other families in the class. Monday we attended the mommy playdate. This is great for the moms and the kids. 

Henry had a blast playing on all the park equipment. 

And I loved seeing all the mommies! If you aren't in bible study, the gym or walmart/costco I don't get to see you. Which means I don't get to see as many people as I wish I did. 


 Heather and  Farron

 Ashley and Julie getting their fit on.

Rachel, Angela, Sarah and Sheila. 
Between all of us we had 100 kids there. Not really but there were many!

I'm thankful God has put me in contact with so many wonderful and godly women. 

God is bigger than this and Jesus can fix-it. 

Friday, November 6, 2015

Friday Favorites.

Thrift shopping is my favorite thing ever. Yesterday the sisters, my mom and I went to another town to dig through their treasures! I'm so glad we did because we all found some wonderful finds! Here's my loot. Lululemon pants $1.50, gap shirt dress $2, nike tank $1, tan top $1.50 and new nlt study bible $5! Can't beat that!

I love when things just work out. Yesterday I pulled up to Henry's school and noticed everyone wearing their favorite team shirts... I forgot about another spirit day again... We forgot crazy sock day, hat day, pj day, pizza day and now jersey day. Then I thought about what shirt Henry did pick out. 
Funny how things work out. He wanted to wear his Team Jonathan shirt to school that day!


Power in prayer. Yesterday I wrote down under my Henry prayer column that I wanted God to help him become more independent. (maily because he is driving me crazy) That's all I wrote. That God, He is mighty to save and quick to serve. Henry decided that morning that he would go upstairs by himself to retrieve his dinosaur and he brushed his hair and put away the hairbrush... This morning he collected all his dinosaurs and asked for a zip-lock so that he wouldn't lose them... 

Brussel sprouts. are. my. favorite.
I've been eating them like candy. My new favorite combo is brussel sprouts and butternut squash.  

A group of us are taking our kids to experience another world without leaving ours. We will get to experience how povern people in different countries live. I think it will be powerful for all of us to see but especially our children. 


God is bigger than this and Jesus can fix-it. 

Thursday, November 5, 2015


I'm in such a better place this week than I was last. What helped make the attitude change was a friend, actually a few friends.

1. First Friend sent me this article.

There is a statement that ran deep in me.
So what do we do when we feel drained and empty? When no one understands our suffering and no one seems to care? When we feel discouraged and tired and unbearably lonely?  Read the Bible and Pray.  Read the Bible even when it feels like eating cardboard. And pray even when it feels like talking to a wall. 
Read. Meditate on the words. Write down what God is telling you. Adk God to reveal himself. Believe God uses scripture to teach and to comfort. Reading this way changes that cardboard into manna. "Your words were found, and I ate them, and your words became to me a joy and the delight of my heart"(Jeremiah 15:16)
-Desiring God, The loneliness of sufffering.
So, I've been chewing my cardboard during my quiet time.

2. Second Friend, Tell God how you feel. Keep talking to him.

So, I did. Out-loud. I felt terrible for feeling this way but he can see my heart anyway why not just tell him anyway...

3.  Third Friend, Let's send each other our Joys for the day. Even when it's a bad day and nothing good came from it let's show each other how God gave us some joy.

So I did. When you look for joy it is a lot easier to find. Like your shoes or car keys.

4. Fourth Friend, Let's encourage each other in prayer. I bought a prayer book a while back but had yet to use it. She has the same one and walked me through her process and every morning I meet with the Lord and go through the ACTS way of praying. This encouraged me to write down my prayers and to really focus during my time with God. It's also wonderful to have someone to keep you accountable.

So, while I chewed the cardboard, spilled my heart, found joy in the day and intentionally made time for the Lord, he met with me. He never abandoned me. He was waiting for me to do my part. I can't just expect to be fed without first telling Him how hungry I am. I craved him but didn't realize how starved I was for His attention. And he met me. And he meets with me in the morning and through the day but only because I seek him.

Like any friendship it takes work. Jesus and I didn't become close because I said, you're my best friend now. We had to go through all the stages of friendship.

First, The Acquaintance- the awkward conversations and small talk...

Second, The Casual Friendship- I think I like you because we share common qualities and interest, we should see if this develops. Let's continue talking. Maybe, Jesus the Christ, you can come over for dinner and we can see where this goes.

Third, The Close Friendship- Alright Jesus, I like the way you eat and think. I'm going to send you some awkward but funny text messages or phone messages and if you respond in the way I think you will then we could possibly be best friends.

Fourth, BFF, Intimate Friendship- This is the deepest and shows a commitment to generously invest in one another's lives with the goal of helping each other mature and grow. It requires Honesty, humility and discretion. At this level, we have the freedom to correct one another and point out each other's blind spots. (or food in the teeth) We suggest solutions for problems that we address. We are faithful, loyal and encourage each other in love. JC points out my flaws because he has none....

Even at the BFF level I have to do my part. I wasn't. The result of that was feeling abandoned, lonely, and disconnected. Why was he playing at other people's house? Why's His picture on facebook with those people and why didn't they invite me? Why is he spending so much time with them when I feel so terrible? He doesn't abandoned His children. But it's not a one sided friendship. I have to invite him to my house if I want him to play.

So, I did.

And he showed up.

God is bigger than this and Jesus can fix-it. 

Monday, November 2, 2015

Weekend Review: Halloween.

We started our Halloween festivities Friday night at our churches big fall festival! We love this event because it is a great community outreach program and the candy...

Anna and Mr. Shark. 
The day of the party I told the kids to run upstairs and pick their costumes out of the costume bucket in the playroom. I'm not into stimulating the economy... 

We arrived a little early to the church and tested all the game lines before it got crowded... Actually there were no lines and my kids got to play all the games before anyone arrived... I cheated, wait- Brain Cancer! 

We were first in line for the balloon animals! A pink poodle and yellow elephant!
Blurry but you can see no one has arrived. 
Jonathan met up with us and we ate and he took the kids home. I worked our class booth. (I'm trying to redeem myself to y'all for the cheating of the lines... Sure I got to work it with my friends but that's not the point.)

Halloween night!
Again, I told the kids to go pick their costume out of the playroom and Lucy chose to be a witch and Henry chose the shark. 

Lucy wanted spider webs, lightening strikes and a beauty mark. 

Henry wanted bubbles. 
Our buddies joined us for chili and trick-or-treating!

I love, love, loved that the Kelso's showed up in costume! 

Pam the cheerleader & Mary the ninja. 

Jonathan the Home Depot Worker & Paxton the jock. 

My next favorite part of the night was running into our neighbor the wolf. He looked at me and I looked at him and he said, "It's you!" Last year we saw this kid creeping on us, every time we would turn around he would jump behind a mailbox. I had this wonderful idea to scare him. As he hid behind a mailbox, I walked down the street pretending I forgot something and then I jumped out and scared this kid to death. I've never laughed so hard.... I'm glad he remembered it. 

Lucy and I had a girls afternoon on Sunday. I miss this big girl during the week. 

God is bigger than this and Jesus can fix-it.