Wednesday, April 29, 2015

The Greatest Moment of My Life

The Greatest Day of My Life


 April 25, 2015


When I walked down the aisle and into a room


and the Dr. asked, "Do you know who this is?" 


My love smiled and said, "I do, that's Mary and she is my wife."


We have been newlyweds ever since. 


The newness of our relationship is back. The love only newlyweds share but with a deeper intimacy that only time could allow. 


Newlyweds have the joy of each other. 


Newlyweds have nothing in between them. 


Newlyweds don't let kids, schedules, work, laundry, cooking, cleaning, yard, responsibilities or sleep get between them. 


(Hey Captain Morgan, I see you)


The only thing between us right now is Jesus and he is pulling us closer together than we have ever been. 
(only the holy spirit could do that and pull my veil to the furthest limits from my head)


God has done wonderful things this week. I'd do them all again to realize not only my love for my husband but the love and power of God. 


He is Good. 


 He is powerful. 


He wants everyone. 


We all have the opportunity to experience His Love and to obtain His Peace. 


 He has written our story long before we were born and long before we were believers. 


As beautiful as these pictures are they don't compare to what God has prepared and planned. I want the world to experience the Joy that Jesus has brought into our lives. 


Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. 
Proverbs 3:5-6

God is bigger than this and Jesus Can Fix-It. 


Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Because We Love To Laugh


Story #1
The morning after surgery Jonathan got to thinking, " the Dr said the surgery could affect my memory. (Cuts eyes to side and thinks for 3-5 seconds) Nope, I remember everything I know."
Praise the Lord Pookie Bear!
Story #2
Jonathan has never been good at remembering names. That was my job. Before social events we would practice the names. After surgery he was trying to tell a story about some people and he couldn't remember their names. He looked at me and said, " oh no! They took out half my brain!"
Story #3
Day two post op and he is feeling good and more like himself. He looked at me and said, " mary bear, I think I'm good to go. I thought I'd be with Jesus but I'm feeling good. I think I'll be at work by Monday."
Story #4
This is my favorite thing ever. J stayed home from work on Thursday because he was having back pain. On Friday he had his episode and I sent a note to work saying he wouldn't be in. He was at the hospital having some test run just because I didn't have any details.  That afternoon his buddy showed up with a cookie cake from his team. The inscription said," Buck Up Buttercup!" Which makes me laugh louder and harder than anything else.
Keep praying for Jonathan. We have seen God in all the details. He keeps handing us reminders and flags of don't worry, I've got this! He is in control and I'm so thankful that we don't have to know where we go from here because God does and he's been planning things a lot longer than I have. His plans are perfect.

Fix-it Jesus. God is bigger than this. 

Monday, April 27, 2015

When God Speaks.


God is being so loud right now I had to get up and write it down.

It's thundering outside and it has the distinct sound of God moving around mountains. Every time I hear it thunder Matthew 17:21 jumps into my head.

Because of your little faith, For truly, I say to you if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, Move from here to there and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.

Which is so funny because just last week my best friend, Marci, sent Lucy a mustard seed necklace with this verse attached. Lucy asked Jesus into her heart and Marci wanted to commemorate the moment with a special gift and constant reminder to her that God is faithful you just need to have faith which she did but it was also God planting his word in my heart.

The second thing, I hear after Matthew 17:21 thunder is the song Oceans, by Hillsong United. But mostly with the line Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders. 

This has been on the radio for the past few months and I love to belt it out in the car but we've also been singing it in our Adult Fellowship class which has helped me really focus on the words. 

You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now

So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

Yeah
Oh Jesus yeah, my God
I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine


Read more: Hillsong United - Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) Lyrics | MetroLyrics 




The next thought that God has given me after Spirit lead me where my trust is without border is the loudest  kid version of My God is so Big, so Strong and so Mighty!

My God is so big, so strong and so mighty
There's nothing my God cannot do
My God is so big, so strong and so mighty
There's nothing my God cannot do

The mountains are His, the rivers are His
The stars are His handiwork too
My God is so big, so strong and so mighty
There's nothing my God cannot do, hey, hey

My God is so great, so strong and so mighty
There's nothing my God cannot do
My God is so great, so strong and so mighty
There's nothing my God cannot do

The mountains are His, the rivers are His
The stars are His handiwork too
My God is so great, so strong and so mighty
There's nothing my God cannot do

My God is so big, so strong and so mighty
There's nothing my God cannot do
My God is so big, so strong and so mighty
There's nothing my God cannot do

The mountains are His, the rivers are His
The stars are His handiwork too
My God is so big, so strong and so mighty
There's nothing my God cannot do

There's nothing my God cannot do
There's nothing, nothing, nothing He can't do


My kids and I have been singing this since they were born. God has been planting his word and preparing us for this moment my entire life. 




And Last these verses

Hebrew 4:16



It may look like Jesus A.D.D. but God talks to us and He wants us to listen because He created us, He loves us, He is for us, He has a plan for us, and He is always with us.

Amazingly, now that I have this out it is quiet and I am going to bed.

Fix-It Jesus.
God is bigger than this.

Sunday, April 26, 2015

Jonathan update

Jonathan's surgery went well. He is very coherent. He has recognized/named everyone who has been in the room, he even explained to me how to operate his phone. His memory is good.
God has been answering our prayers but not just that He has held our hand and comforted us this entire process. Seriously, JC HAS TAKEN OVER. He has taken away my what ifs. He has given me a peace that only he could give me- because brain surgery... on my 35 year old husband, father of our children, my best friend, my partner in crime and in life. God has taken away the fear and instead filled me with his warmth, love and peace. Seriously, My heart feels warm -Like from a big Jesus hug.
I have been in awe of Gods provision.
1. I asked for rest again for Jonathan. And people prayed for it and God has again granted him rest. He's slept from about ,10-2am. Off and on since then. ( he keeps waking up nd telling me he loves me and that I need to sleep. Which makes me swoon because yesterday he had a hard time remembering my name)
2. I've asked God for Jonathan's pain to get under control, people prayed and God has made sure that j was comfortable enough to sleep. The first few hrs after surgery he said his pain was at a 9 and 10. Now he hasn't complained.
3. I don't even know what's happening at home but I've prayed that my kids are being taken care of and that they are feeling loved. And guys they are. They've had grandparents, aunts and uncles, friends and their kids love on them. Aunt Delta leading the charge and im thankful for her. Delta and my friends even cleaned my bathroom and fridge and put away the mountain of laundry that I've been avoiding. I'd rather my friends saw me naked or knew my weight over seeing my mess. But Gods taken that care away too and honestly I'm thankful and grateful to have friends who just have taken over and taken care of things and it will be nice to come home to a clean house.
4. Which leads to a prayer I prayed when we first moved to Frisco. I had a 4 year old and a 12 week old and not a friend in Texas. I remember nursing henry and praying that God would give a friend. Just one. My expectations were low- they didn't even have to be a good friend just someone to talk to. And he led us to Stonebriar and then to the journey And he gave us not just one friend but a whole group who goes above and beyond and honestly they've been our family.
Praying.
Now, most specifically I am asking openly and boldly that this Tumor be benign. We find out the results by Tuesday.  Please pray with me that Tumor would be benign!!!
I'm done with my thoughts. Thank you for everyone who has prayed and continues to pray for Jonathan. God is moving mountains and I know that he is so much bigger than a little tumor. Jesus can fix it.

Saturday, April 25, 2015

Prayers!!!!!

Big Bold Prayers for my Jonathan. Lord heal him in a mighty way for your glory!
Mary