Since hearing about kingdom prayers my prayer life has changed drastically. Gone are the days that I pray for comfort for my friends, family or even myself. I’m praying prayers with a heavenly agenda. Prayers that build God’s kingdom and build the characteristics of God into his followers.
Paul never prayed that God would break him out of jail, instead, he sat and wrote encouraging letters to believers across the globe, “Don’t give up the faith”, “be strong”, “go out and spread the word”!
I can imagine Jesus sitting in that jail cell with him drafting the letters in Paul’s heart (and maybe checking spelling, I bet he was a master speller…) because that is when Jesus shows up. He shows up in your dark moments.
What are we doing in those dark moments with Jesus?
I’ve been at his feet begging him to please take this away. I’m done. I’m tired. Pick on someone your own size… There might have even been a pity party and get out of my face involved.
And he hasn’t taken this away. He hasn’t left my side. He hasn’t gotten out of my face… But he has aligned my heart with his. (He’s tricky that way…)
Jonathan and I have the opportunity to spend a lot of time with Jesus through the trial and hell that we are living through. He shows up in the messy. He loves to cool the heat of earthly hell with his heavenly glory. And he wants us to take comfort in his shade.
Jonathan started chemo last night. Round #20. I’ve prayed for 19 months for God to take away his nausea and his aches and just let Jonathan breeze through a round. And it hasn’t happened. It’s been disappointing and heartbreaking to watch my strong husband, the leader of the family be taken down by something as small as a pill…
For the past month, I’ve aligned my heart with his. I’m focused on what I can do with our hell to bring Glory to him and to build his kingdom.
My prayer for this week is that we would look past the aches, pains, nausea, disappointment, heartache, discomfort and focus on Jesus. We have the opportunity to spend a lot of close time clinging to him. I want my time with him not to be focused on bringing us comfort but how he wants us to build his kingdom and glorify God.
God is bigger than this and Jesus Can fix-it.