Friday, May 5, 2017

A love letter.

 A thank you and A love letter.


I was planning an end of chemo party to celebrate Jonathan and to thank all of our friends for the support over the past two years. I had a park booked, I had a menu planned- crawfish, I booked a bounce house and then I realized the date wouldn't work for some people who I love and wanted to be there and then I got in a tizzy trying to arrange it all and make the date work. The only thing Jonathan hates more than me in a tiz is a crowd, so I texted my friends and said- Party is off, give J a high-five when you see him, love you and thank you. So if you are waiting for an invite to a party... it's not going to happen.

But my friends felt this should be celebrated and surprised us with pizza, cake and prayer during our Sunday school time.

We have an amazing class who has supported us and I'm thankful we were able to celebrate with them.




Now, a love letter to the ones I love-

My Loves... You have loved me when I was hard to love. You loved me when I couldn't offer you anything in return. You reached out and offered your time and support when it wasn't convenient for you. You prayed for my family. You showed up. You were the hands and feet of Jesus. You encouraged me, you laughed with me, you pushed me when I was paralyzed with all the grief. You showed up when I was trapped in the dark places, where my trust had borders, and my faith wasn't strong. You met me in the hard, ugly places. You fed my family. You fed my soul with your friendships. You have loved me well. And you continue to love me, show up, and encourage because you know that this isn't over. And I love you.


*Enter Theme Song*

Hands, put your empty hands in mine
And scars—show me all the scars you hide
And hey, if your wings are broken
Please take mine so yours can open, too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you

Oh, tears make kaleidoscopes in your eyes
And hurt, I know you're hurting, but so am I
And, love, if your wings are broken
Borrow mine 'til yours can open, too
'Cause I'm gonna stand by you

Even if we're breaking down, we can find a way to break through
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'm gonna stand by you
Even if we can't find heaven, I'll walk through Hell with you
Love, you're not alone, 'cause I'm gonna stand by you

God is bigger than this and Jesus Can fix it.




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